“…God it feels good to be back in the Medicine, and coming back to my real self after that monster of a purge. Most of the emotional volcano was complete before I left, now we're just sweeping up some energies and allowing the new (true self) belief systems to solidify into place…”

“…So as this cycle comes to completion, it's hard to articulate everything I've learned in the process. A lot of it was simply pent-up emotions that released and purged out, as well as restructuring old belief systems, ego defense mechanisms, and triggers that I had developed in early high school…”

“…With the wound extracted from Paul, I was able to handle getting even farther down the fear hole, hitting areas so vulnerable I hadn't been able to touch them in years, for fear I would collapse into oblivion. But these defense mechanisms are hard to penetrate…”

“…It's amazing how quickly the blindside can slam you. Just when you settle into a nice, comfortable place...BAM! This is the life on an accelerated path…”

“…As challenging as a given ceremony can be, for many, it's not the hardest part. Nasty vomits, emotional rollercoasters, scary hell visions are no match to that which is so familiar - life in the Matrix. Where those things you are purging were born and bred…”

“…I mean, all of it. Exploring. Cultivating ourselves into our truest selves. Purging our demons. Reprogramming and restructuring limiting belief systems. Overcoming the money block. Training for something bigger…”

“…I was feeling attacked, primarily because it annoyed me that I couldn't just have a relationship in the form I wanted, without so much commentary from the peanut gallery. But once that part began to recede, I had to eventually look at the weak spot underneath that triggered the ego to care so much...which was the nature of the relationship itself…”

“…Gossip sucks. No one claims to like or be a part of, and is most of the time considered a very superficial, annoying part of life. I have come to understand how dark, sneaky, and serious this little energy can be…”

“…I didn't even see it...as are the nature of the blind spots. The sticky web of high school following me around like thin hairs of silk you can never quite shoo off…”